Day #34: [Mostly] Fantastic Weekend

Activities
Contra Dancing: Recommended!
It's like square dancing, tons of fun and energizing.

Photoshoot with friends: Highly Recommended!

Struggles
So I didn't see him at all last Sunday, which didn't bother me. But I saw him more than I wanted today.
I hated it.
I hated that he smiled when he saw me and that I turned away in hostile anxiety. I hated that stupid beanie hat he was wearing.
I feel unexpectedly angry. How dare he come into my ministry room and talk to a kid when I'm just a glance away. I don't want to see him. I want him to run in shame from me, under the weight of his lies to me.

I need to pray over these feelings and wants.

Thanks for reading,
Avery

Day #30: Happy One Month of Singleness!

Activities
Be happily productive: Recommended

Quick synopsis:
Great day. Praised God. Was social. Had fun. Had new experiences. Got Starbucks.

Thanks for reading,
Avery

Day #29: Happy Would-Be Anniversary!

Activities
Dress nicely on accident: Recommended!

Be with friends and do homework to live music: Highly Recommended!

Struggles
So, today's the day: it would have been one year today. I don't feel very strongly and didn't even remember until halfway through the day.
In a way, it feels like a slap in the face, reminding how long I let that relationship deteriorate and hurt me. The break-up feels so close.
In another way, I feel as though I've come so far as a person in just a month. It feels like I haven't seen him in months.
Some new struggles of being single are starting to set in. A pair of acquaintances just started dating and seeing them in that first phase made me feel odd. I felt happy for them, but also bitter, projecting all of my past relationship's problems on them. It was like seeing a favorite dessert when one is on a diet...for the next eleven months.

Thanks for reading,
Avery