Saturday, September 22, 2012

Day #12: Heart Talk

Activity
Have meaningful conversation with your dearest friends: Highly Recommended

Talking. I can recite anything. I can tell a story. I can give a speech at the drop of a hat. However, personal talk is difficult for me. I'm an internal processor: preferring to make sense issues before I can talk about them to others. I'm independent, so in my ability to process issues myself, I shy away from talking about them with others.
This drives my roommate and best friend, Jacquelyn, crazy. She's a verbal processor, so she can't help but talk out her problems. She hates it when I shut her out of my pain. This has created a lot of tension and frustration between us.

But not today.

We stayed up talking until 1:00 this morning. (So it counts as today, right?)
I told her all that I had been keeping to myself: I miss him, the thought of him irritates me, I want him back, I don't want him back, I want to help him, and I want to egg his car.

This conversation made us closer. I could handle these things on my own. But sharing them with Jacquelyn was an opportunity to experience God's love, despite my confused and angry feelings. And I didn't experience that when I kept it all to myself. That led to a long conversation where we shared a lot and showed love to those dark, and painful places of each other's hearts.

What I learned:
Even if you can be alone, this isn't the life that God has for you. He has made us for intimacy and love: when we're single, too.

Thanks for reading,
Avery

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